MSAs are finally over but no, there's no huge wave of relief or anything. The feeling's still there. The words just keep popping out in my head. I know I shouldn't be complaining or anything-- I dont want a repeat of what happened two years ago. But sometimes it's just very hard to suppress everything and keep on controlling. Eventually I'll just crumble and break down. But even when that happens, the problem's still there. Letting out whatever I'm feeling only gives me momenterary relief. But at the end of the day, I'll still have to face reality. It's not easy to find the motivation I have to work hard. But you always unknowingly crush all the hopes I'm secretly having for myself. It hurts, real badly. The words you use really hurt.
& all I'm hoping for is a little less pressure.
If not for you all, you guys know who you are, I really won't be able to handle this.
Thanks =)
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